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Pseudo-random. Meaning false random, which is actually the only random. because all manner of things are affected by their surroundings, affect the future of their surroundings, and are affected by the very sequence of deriving the random. And stuff. Ok i ran out of idea really quick.

But the cat says "me-e-ew" in a cat sort of voice. I dont think she likes the way i rearranged the living room piles of junk. But since she's smaller than most of the stuff and sleeps a lot of the time anyway, she can enjoy her cat-bed. Which i didnt move. Not that it matters - she would rather sniff everything else that is stacked differently than it was last time she sniffed it. I think i'll go edit some of the settings in the control panel.

I dont exist. Until someone opens the box. Unless it is you in the box. Then you would not exist, though a high probability exists that you could be found there. But if you are not there, and i write about you, then you could be there. Even in a way you weren't. Thats called propaganda, or fantasy. The fabrication of a reality that would never have existed if it had not been created. Watching television the other night there seemed to be an extravaganza of really twisted sounding movies that you could watch and implant their really twisted and even grotesque realities into your existance.

So i wonder, does that really benefit me or you as an individual, or us as a society, or the broader greatness of us as the human race? Is the attrocities that occur every hour in our world not enough? Is the potential crumblings of our preceived safeties and security not sufficiently disillusional to our minds? Why does man create? To better himself... or to simply change what was?

How wrong is it to proclaim that we desire peace, justice, and equity and still can find the resources within our clouded and murky souls to finance horrific fantasy in the guise of entertainment. It is a knife with no handle. To hold it is to bleed yourself, to weaken your existance, and to compromise anything good that you are or beleive. And while it is wrong to turn away when horror happens to our friends, our neighbors or our fellow persons on another continent of the globe, We should never watch - We should act. Stand as a leader that can be followed; to prevent a bully beating some kid for lunch money; an organizer to teach the unpriviledged; a humanitarian to bring food and water; a voice to bring truth; a symbol of who we /should/ be. Not a passive degenerate of who we are. If we all try to reach the wholly unattainable goal of perfection, then we will begin to see small improvements in ourselves, in others and we can encourage each other to be true to what is good and not to waste our kindness by hypocrasy, fantastic escapes we conjure to our screens, and just plain passifism. Passivity. Whatever you want to call it. Wrongness. Make the world better, and start with your own brain, your own head. Exist like you mean it to be better. Think and act outside the box.